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What I deal the most with, and have for awhile is something I have no start to a solution, except faith, which is hard to do blind. I have no personal revelations no matter how many people I talk this out to or for how long, I always end with "He knows and we aren't suppose to know." Which makes me happy puts me in a ignorant bliss, but I don't want anything about my faith to be ignorant, unknown fine but not ignorant. Where does trust end and test began, when does living for Him meet being "a good little Christian boy"? The bible is the only absolute truth doctrine in this world but it has a lot of absolutely vague instructions. Are my morals and values changing in to another's who just interpret the bible a different way, or am I seeing the world more as He does and transversely have more of an urge not to sin?

We must trust in God this I know, but when does trusting turn in to testing which I know we should not do? I trust God to give me the knowledge I need to do His will, is it testing Him if I don't do my research, diving in the word with a open heart? Many Christians have different views on many things of God, who is speaking Godly and who is following false truths? Some believers say drinking is fine even good in moderation, other believers think, not one ounce should touch your lips. In my reading I have found verses to support drinking, but I still choose not to for I don't want to see how close I get to Satan before he grabs me. That fear is irrational for God's strength over towers the devils strength by countless stories. As long as I trust in God, His former employee present subordinate, cannot lay a finger on me. Still all I can do is be honest with myself and ask God for the knowledge to make the right choose to live godly. I used that word trust again I know the devil can't hurt me but would it be testing God if I drank? There is something I feel/know inside me that I shouldn't drink so for me it would be testing, be honest with yourself don't use others experiences to make your decision, only use their experiences as a precedent to help make yours. God gives you the perfect answer for each unique situation you are in, so what was perfect for Jim may not be God's will for Tim. By the by in the middle of writing this I got a phone call, in which I trusted in God enough to voice my fears only to find out she was dealing with a similar fear. If you don't voice your fear how will you hear the people God sent to help you. Still you must make the finial choose with the sole reason behind it being Him. You have to build your relationship with Him and pray for guidance, He will give it to you, it's just a matter if you are ready to accept it.

That brings me to two other things I struggle with, I over analyze many things, so how do I know a sign is one of God, not just a happening not meant to help guide me. Sometimes there is no doubt I go in to the right choose feeling God's right hand on my shoulder and leave the situation fulfilled with the holy spirit. It is the times were two or more answers make justifiable sense usually several different chooses have been selected by the people I lean on for spiritual help. All I can say on this issue is as my relationship strengthen so did my confidents in many decisions, I only pray as I get even closer my knowhow on situations also continues to improve. The second issue that arose "figuring out" my initial question is how much doubt to bestow on others. It is good to discuss with others, but the theme of the day persists, when does helpful discussion turn to hindering worries your pawning on another? I hope I provoked helpful discussions not hindering uncertainties. All these extremes have an extremely narrow path of righteousness that only the Master Shepherd can guide us through, but He may use others as tools for His will.

I didn't write this blog to give advice, although God does work in mysteries ways maybe it will help some people, it already helped me. During the course of creating this blog I felt some burdens being lifted. I don't wonder where they went I know they went in the loving hands of God, the problem didn't leave but I am ok with that, because I know God knows so it will be dealt with perfectly. He might use some of you reading this to help me so please have the courage and strength God gave you to help your fellow brother. Everyone has many avenues of doing God's will one of mine is blogging, others are discussion, reading my bible, Church, youth, music... there our an outrageous amount, but I know they are God avenues because of the reward I get.